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Qualifications:
I am
an Ordained Spiritual Minister of the now
defunct High Church of Aquarius, an
Ordained Minister of the United Light Church and an
Ordained Minister of the Australian Spiritual Association.
I was the Australian Representative
and High Priestess of Ordo
Sacerdotalvs Templi (OST), J now
I am an exponent and adept
at Kundalini Meditation.
I am an exponent and adept
at Reiki.
I am an exponent and adept
at EMF (Electronic Magnetic Force) massage technique.
I have a Bachelor of Divinity
from the Universal Brotherhood Movement.
I was a member of the Theosophical
Society. (have to renew membership one day).
I am an AMORC drop-out.
I have a Diploma in Youth
Work
I am the Founder of The
Cosmic Cauldron
I am the Founder of the
Pagans For Peace project.
I am the Founder of the Aeonist
philosophy.
I have read and studied the
Bible, the Tomasian Bible, the Torah, the Quoran, the
Havamal, the Wiccan Rede, the Kabbalah and many books
on Buddhism, Toaism, Druidry, Shamanism and the Craft.
I am
Matriach of Tintean
Clann Danu
I am a Bard and Philosopher.
Call me a Jill of All Trades.
An Adept if you wish. An Elder if you so desire.
I am Me. A Humble Shaman Priest.
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Mystique Mish *
~ The Wayfinder ~
Community Advocate and Arbitrator
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My name is Mish Michala
Desiree Lee-Price. I was born male and have been Transgendering
for nearly four years now. As I hold women in high regards
and in Honor of OUR Mother and Goddess I had decided to change
my sex and live life as a Woman.
We ALL evolve. We
ALL change. We ALL discover self or strive to acheive the
same. To find Self and the Spiritual Being within.
I have walked a long,
hard road with many Sorrows, Emotional Pain, Hurt and Anguish
but I have chossen not to allow myself to become bitter, to
dwell on the Negatives of Life. I have decide to be in Control
of my Life and my Identity. I am not an Atomatron, or Borg
or Lemming and will NOT allow Life to Control me.
We are all on the
same journey from the Craddle to the Grave and the Other Side
and Worlds Beyond . I am not a Lemming marching towards that
final outcome.
After all that I
have endured I found my purpose and reason for existence.
To help others and be a Guide.
There are many in the Community
who know me by my male name, Michael or MiC, it is a name
I no longer identify with or relate to. I am now Shemale and
I am re-building myself in the image of our Mother Goddess
as I am a Goddess Worship.
I am and have always been
a Shaman. A Shaman is a soul retriever and healer. Somewhere
along the line I lost my Shamanic ability, my Magic, My Soul
during my relationship with my ex-partner. It wasn't her fault
...it was all the Negative Bullying people around her at the
time ... her ex-husband, ex-friends and the psychic vampires
...
I
am second generation Australian (in places and a little original
Australian). I am half Irish (my mother's side - Avery and
Frawley) and a quarter Welsh (my father's father - he changed
his name from Pryce to Price) and 1/ 8 aboriginal (my father's
mother was 1/ 2 and I do not know what the other half was).
Without
going into a great detail ... both my mother and father where
Christian ... my father Anglican my mother Catholic (Irish)
... neither converted and married with the understanding that
religion was an open though not much discussed faith in their
house hold. I always had a leaning to the Occultism, Metaphysics
and Druidry. I found the philosophies of Gnostism, the Rosecrucians,
Wicca, Hinduism, Buddhism, Taoism, Druidr, Asatru and Witchcraft
a great deal more to my liking.
"The Wayfinder"
is NOT a Magical Name; NOT my Magical Name, it is NOT a Nick
Name or even one I chose for myself. It is a title given to
me by the spirits and the Gods and Goddesses. A mantle presented
to me by one of my Gurus (Dhyanyogi Madhusudandasj) on another
plane of
existence during an After-Death/ Out of Body experience.
In 1983 I died (wasn't
the first time I had died in this life - I had died three
times before ... electrocuted when 12; drowned at 17; drug/
heroin overdose at 20) after a horrific bike accident. I died
as a result of the bike accident and was pronounced dead on
arrival at the hospital. I came back, in the morgue and after
discovery, was rushed to the Emergency Operation Theatre,
where I died again. Revived (with paddles) I was taken to
intensive care where I died again.
These out of body experiences/
life after death experiences were like dreams. Very intense
and vibrant and visual dreams, Real. It was like existing
in another plane of existence. Another world; place; time.
Like "Crossing Over" (as John Edwards called the
otherside) to another dimensional place that I will call what
the Celts refer to as the Otherworld(s).
The first 'experience'
which I had previously referred to as the tunnel was "freaky"
I sensed people/ apparitions walking passed me ... both going
back towards where I had come from and also towards where
I was heading. Some where seemingly in a hurry to get where
they were going ... I, on the other hand, was dawdling ...
I was taking everything in ... not wanting to go and not really
wanting to stay and unsure whether or not to turn back. Suddenly,
a familial friend's face appeared before me. His name was
'Rupee" (a Tongan living in Australia who I worked with)
who died in a car accident three weeks before. He said: "MiC,
it ain't your turn ... go back!" I was instantly in the
operating room hovering over my own body, looking down as
the doctors applied the paddles. I was back (yet still in
a bad way).
The second experience was
even more weird. I found myself in a completely 'white' room.
Sitting on a 'white' chair. There was another person in the
room. A woman. She sat there on another chair and just stared
at me. We did not converse. Suddenly, a man in a long white
robe appeared. He actually just walked through the wall into
the room. He had long white hair and a long white beard. His
skin was tannished in appearance. He stood there and gestured
to me. This was Dhyanyogi Madhusudandasj. He did not speak
audibly but I could hear him in my head. He said to me:.
"You are the Wayfinder.
You are he who is meant to help others find the paths that
they are to follow. You are the torch in the dark. You are
there to help others walk the path that they fear most and
show them the way to start there journeys. Do not preach to
them. Accept them and their beliefs with the uniqueness that
THEY are because they are ONE with YOU as I am ONE with YOU.
Go for you are to serve."
That was the awakening
of my gifts but not the start of my Spiritual Journey.
I realise now that the
Woman in that White Room was also, Me, and I could of chosen
then and there to come back in that form and start the transistioning
that I so desired earlier imy life.
Allow me to explain, which
will become more apparent as you read my story.
In my youth I lived a very
Bohemian Lifestyle in Surry Hills, Darlinghurst and Kings
Cross in New South Wales, Australia. I frequented Oxford Street,
Darlinghurst and Kings Cross. I was a Cross-dresser with plans
to Transgender. Besides female partners, I had many Transsexual
Lovers and the occassional boyfriend.
I moved back to my parents
home in the late 80s to help with family issues but I kept
this aspect of my life concealed. Late one night, I got drunk
and stoned, returned home and as my Sisters were not home
raided their wardrobes and make-up and got dressed up as a
woman. I was discovered the next morning passed out on my
bed by my Mother and younger sister.
My Mother (Irish Catholic)
who had passed away in 1993 then, swore me to secrecy, after
we had a long talk about my desire to Transistion. She requested
NOT to tell my father and as I was the only boy in the family
it was my duty to produce heirs to carry on the family name
etc.
Since that day, I have
had many failed relationships with women and have been extremely
unhappy. I have been married once and have lived in two defacto
relationships. I have sired a 30 year old daughter (who still
is unsure if I am herr real father but knows that I am Transgendering),
a 28 year old son (who does not know and because of his fundamental
Baptist beliefs may disown me like his younger brother has),
a 25 year old son (who knows and has seemingly disowned me)
and two little ones from my last relationship, a girl aged
9 and a boy aged 7 (who has high level Autism - Aspergers)
and both know that I am becoming a woman as I live as a woman
since separating from their mother, who by the way is my best
friend.
At Fifteen (15) I left
home and went and lived in an Artist Commune in Chippendale
(Redfern) and lived an alternative life style. One of the
people (out of the artists, musicians and occultists I knew)
who had a very notable influence on me during my youth was
Rosalind Norton (Roie). She inspired me to look beyond the
socially acceptable and question what is normal in society.
Rosalind Norton was not Wiccan and never considered herself
to be a Witch although she was dubbed by the Media as the
"Witch of Kings Cross". She allowed this however,
for notoriety and publicity sake. Rosalind Norton was an Occultists.
Rosalind Norton initiated me(I will go into no detail). I
was her toy boy and acolyte and I will say no more about this
other than, I still have one of the books she gave me.
Two other people I knew
at that time who had some influence on me was Carlotta and
Madam Lash.
There has been a great
many people who have had an influence on me. Too many to name.
I was fortunate to have been taken under the wing of some
notable and even notorious people during my youth. As a young
musician, I played in bands as a member of ,or a session musician
with, Dingo, Lunar Sea, Gold Rush, Radio Birdman, as well
having worked as a roadie for Billy Thorpe and the Azetcs,
Brian Cadd, Stevie Wright, Richard Clapton, my good friend
Barry Leef and several others.
As musicians have a tendancy to associate with other musicians
(mostly at the good ole "Muso's Club" in Surrey
Hills or across the road at the Celtic Club or The Paradise
at Kings Cross) I remember getting drunk or stoned with Billy
Thorpe, Brian Mannix, Ted Mulry, Lobby Lloyd, Jon English
and Doug Parkinson (the last two gentlemen I considered friends
at the time ... Jon even dated my sister for a while). I even
recall getting drunk with Lou Reed when he toured
Australia at the Beef, Steak and Bourban in Kings Cross. I
could also lists the Journalists, Cartoonists and Artists
I have known but the list would be endless Most musicians
and artists, especially during the early1980s, lived an alternative
life style or had alternative points of view and often spirituality,
especially here in Australia.
Another person, I need
to mention who was a great inspiration was Athena Starwoman,
who was a very close friend of mine and I was greatly sadden
by her untimely passing and I miss her dearly.
In my youth I was a seeker.
Very early upon leaving home I joined the "Orange People"
and was a follower of Osho for a time. However, the bizarre
sexual rites, use of hallucigence and other rituals became
a little unnerving and even taxing. I recall meeting Rosalind
Norton
around this time as well and it was largely due to her influence
that I began to research S.L. Macgregor Mathers and Aleister
Crowley Although drawn to occultism, I did not readily appreciate
or even accept Paganism or even Wicca as a path and I would
say, that due to
my own insecurities and real non-understanding of Christianity
as well as my deep love of the mysterious that I readily embraced
Gnosticism and later AMORC in 1980.
In 1975 I fathered a child
and lived a musician lifestyle in Surry Hills with the Mother
of my daughter, who was introduced to me by Rosalind. I was
19, she only 15. Tragedy struck with the death of my daughter
which sent me into a spiral of drug and alcohol abuse and
caused me to dabble in Satanism for a while. I was a member
of a Satanic Coven in Kings Cross. I was initiated to second
degree by my HP Marcel Luis Zmak. Of this period of time I
will write not and
share no secrets. Rosalind disapproved. Needless to say we
drifted and my daughter's mother left me as well.
To escape this maddening
life style I knew I had to get away. It was late in 1978,
I traveled to Bali where I converted to Buddhism and after
six months of residing in that place which I considered paradise,
I returned happily to Australia to persue my artistic and
musical career with greater fervour. I also, learned about
Roie's death when I returned and was greatly saddened.
I've lived in chronological
order: Chippendale (Redfern), Darlinghurst, Kings Cross, Surrey
Hills, Elizabeth Bay, Surrey Hills (again) and Ultimo during
my youth . Needless to say the cosmopolitian culture of living
in areas around the City of Sydney had a large influence on
my
viewpoint. and the pain, sorrow and tragedy that I had experienced
in my youth really had an impact of my general out-look.
In 1980s I moved to Canada
and lived there for a year and a half. I was whilst living
there that I (as stated above) readily embraced Gnosticism
and AMORC and began studying metaphysics amd philosophy and
in the Summer of 1980 that I found myself in the audience
of a new
television program called "The Nature of Things with
David Suzuki". Even then, I was inspired by the great
man and included him in my list of mentors. It was also, around
this time that I was fortunate to meet in person another great
man, Mr. Joseph S. Campbell. These are the men
who actually inspired me to greater thought. I attended as
many lectures of these two giants. I felt the mysteries of
the Universe unfolding and read as much as I could and pushed
myself to learn as
much as I could. Whilst, in Canada I also became involved
with The High Church of Aquarius, a spiritual association
and before my return to Australia was ordained as a Minister.
Returning home to Sydney
and between 1982 and 1983, I did a bit of traveling around
Australia. Western Australia and Tasmania are the only two
states I have never been too.
After, my bike accident
in 1983 and several life after death experiences I returned
briefly to the Christian church until late 1984 when I found
the dogma and doctrine of Christianity unfulfiling.
From 1984 -1992 I flirted
with Hinduism and even for a period of time Sai Baba. My Guru
at the time, Ellen Weston, who was Sai Baba's representative
in Australia, taught me Reiki, Hypnotic Regression and Kundalini
Meditation. It was through Ellen and her association with
Margaret and Cassandra (I will not reveal their last names)
that I became a member of the Fellowship of Australian Writers
but also, the Australian Spiritualist Association. In 1989,
I was ordained as a
Spiritualist Minister.
Also, between 1986 -1989,
I father two sons and was in a committed relationship. The
boys mother and I separated in 1992, and the mother and I,
deciding to part amicably, split the boys up. The youngest
went with his mother (who ended up for a time living with
me now) when she moved back to Melbourne and the oldest stayed
living with me in Sydney. I eventually ended up with the two
sons. Her youngest daughter I believe is my child.
At the time, I felt a trifle
hurt and lost and decided go back to the Christian church
for a time (I was raised Anglican although never christened
because my Mother was Catholic and really wanted her children
raised Catholic) ... in truth if it was at all possible to
be 'excommunicated' from the Anglican church ... I was. My
6 year old son (then) was not allowed to return to Sunday
school, I was prevented from volunteering my services as a
Youth Worker in the Anglican youth
centre, I was sacked from working as a contributing illustrator
and press artist at "FreeXpression" magazine which
was owned and managed by a member of the congregation and
all because after a Sunday sermon and at afternoon tea in
the Church hall when introduced to the
heirachy of the congregation, I was asked my 'own' belief
... and said that I did not believe that Jesus was the son
of God and that the bible was a sexist book as there was no
gospel according to Martha or Mary ... Imagine the looks of
horror on the faces of the congregation..... nice knowing
you... goodbye... now..... quickly!
In 1995 and once more returning
to Buddhism and combined it my other learnings, I established
a spiritual group operating as a home church. I dispersed
it prior to moving to America.
It was at this time also,
I discovered the old DOS bulletin boards and later the internet.
I meet and chatted with some very important, if not famous
people. Again, to list them all here would take up a great
deal of room. Many of them, I still chat to occassionally
on-line and many of them are on my friends lists in my Facebook
or PaganSpace or MySpace profiles and many of them, are well
known in the International Global Pagan community. To them,
I do not need to prove myself.
In January 1997, three
days after my birthday my beloved Mother died during a operation
at Liverpool hospital to prepare her for Kidney dialysis.
My father, my son and I were devastated. and as the only son
of my father and my father was in total despair and shock,
I was relied on to identify the body in police presence, make
funeral arrangements and the "Wake" arrangements,
attend the Coroner's Inquest and act as executor to my mother's
estate.
As a result of acting as
her executor, I had to travel to Ireland to get her estate
in order. I left my son in my father's care for six months
and it was during my time in Ireland that I found my roots
and my ancestry. I experienced a Druid gathering and found
Celtic traditions which I embraced whole heartedly.
Upon my return to Australia,
I decided to involve myself in the then fledgeling Pagan Community
and it was during this time also, that I met my American wife
on the internet. After a brief internet courtship, I moved
my son and myself to the USA and became involved
with EMF and a lady know as The Little White Flower. Here
also, I was one of the first to become an ordained Minister
of ULC and when I was ordained you didn't have to pay for
your ceriticate.
Of course the romance did
not fair well, and my wife withdrew her sponsorship. This
is a part of my life I would rather not discuss on-line.
Upon my return to Australia
in late 2001, I re-established my spiritual community as a
Coven. I continued it online for a while when I moved to South
Australia but members got busy with their own lives and it
evolved into what is currently The Temple of the Ancient Ways.
Between 2004 -2006, I was
a member and Shaman of a Asatru community run by a man I once
held in the highest esteem. Since then, I have concentrated
on my personal and own community building.
I have had many premonitions
and I have access to the Akashic Records. Since my accident
(and resulting head injuries) in 1983, I have found myself
with many gifts. I see small as well as big events. My real
first premonition was in 1985 in Sydney on the way to my favorite
watering hole. A mother with a small boy, perhaps five or
six. She had trouble keeping the young fella under control.
He was running ahead of her. I was five or six feet behind
them. I had a vision of a truck
coming down a street two streets away from my pub and the
young lad stepping out in front of it. I strolled hastily
past her and grabbed the boy just before he did so. I handed
him over to his mother and continued on my way. Two of the
locals witnessed it from the pub window. The woman followed
me into the pub and sobbing thanked me. I felt embarrassed
but I was glad the young boy was not killed.
Unfortunately, sometimes
we can not prevent something which is meant to happen. If
we do attempt to, people look at us as if we have three heads
and either scoff, start making arrangements for us to be locked
up or ignore our pleads.
I dreamt about the large
earthquake in India which killed thousands, two days before
it happened. Who was I going to tell?
I dreamt about the Thredbo
Disaster (An avanlache/ mud slide in Thedbo Ski Resort in
NSW, Australia) which killed a great many people. I told my
son and father three days before about the dream. Who else
was I to tell?
I saw in a dream, a month
before the incident, the planes crashing into the twin towers.
Who would have believed me? Especially as I was locked in
a jail in Mancester, New Hampshire awaiting deportation for
being an illegal alien. How could I prevented all those deaths?
I was
however, forewarned. I was due to be deported on September
the 11th ... but because a CO (Correctional Officer)pushed
me down a flight of metal stairs which resulted in my right
arm and wrist being broken/ smashed, the Australian Government
got me out a week and a half early.
I still have the airplane ticket of the plane I was meant
to fly out on- Flight AA11 - Boston to Los Angelos.
Most recently, I predicted
months in advance the Global Financial Crisis although I thought
my prediction had to do with the Large Haddon Compactor as
I saw millions of lives put into crisis but can now see in
hind-sight that the worldwide financial chaos has had much
more of a disastrous impact on the World and more so than
the planet just blowing up.
During mymany years this
time on earth (I am 3670 years old if I count all my past-lives),
I have worked as a copyboy, cadet journalist, cadet artist,
graphic-designer, musician, jockey, bagman, personal minder,
bouncer, press artist, cartoonist, illustrator, teacher, laborer,
storeman, jackaroo, Art Director, Warehouse Manager, Office
Manager, web designer, Community artist, Advocate, political
animal, Justice of the Peace, Youth Worker and a Social Worker
and most recently a Dominatrix.
I have sat in corroberee
with David Gulpilil. Gone Walk-About with Barnum Barnum. Sat
at the feet of David Suzuki and Joseph S. Campbell. I have
shaken the hand of Oberon Zell Ravenheart at a pagan gathering
in America. Rubbed shoulders with Abe Saffron. Been arrested
and
beaten up by Bumper Farrell (Detective Sargeant). Had a sexual
encounter with a well know Aussie actress in Norman Lindsay's
garden. Got stone and pissed with Lou Reed. Got drunk with
Brett Whiteley. Attended dinner parties with Mark Day, Ita
Buttrose, Graham Kennedy
and Steve Vizard. Played pool with Peter and Spike Milligan.
Been served beer at the Dophin Hotel by Bill Hunter. Hung
with Iva Davis and his band in the Hopetown Hotel. Danced
an Irish Jig with Loreena McKennit. Been the toy boy of Rosalind
Norton.
There is much. much more
but I will am not prepared to reveal it in any online forum
and if you truly desire to view my credentials and listen
to the stories of my life you can organise a time to come
and have a beer or a coffee or mead at my home.
My interests and life have
always been Alternative and I have lived a very wonderful,
adventurous and interesting life and wouldn't change any of
it.
Believe my story and take
my word if you so desire. I really don't have to prove anything
to anyone. I know who I am and I know what I have experienced.
I know what is Truth.
Life is good. Take control
of your Life. Don't be an Atomatron, Borg or a Lemming. Don't
let Life Control You. Sing, Dance and Be Happy.
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NO Portion of this Document can be used without my expressed
permission. Copyrighted 2014 by Mish Michala Desiree Lee-Price.
All Rights Reserved. ***
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